New Beginnings

  From early on in life I knew what my big dreams were, and what things in life made me happy and what didn't. I wanted to be a photographer for national geographic to travel the world and share its beauty with everyone. I wanted to be a writer, and to publish a book of poetry and descriptive short stories. So it could open a world of wonders and deep-felt expressions with all who would read them. I wanted to be a shop owner who sold good items that were mostly handmade, and I wanted to do it in person. To me those person-to-person interactions have always been at the top of my list. After all... what real purpose does life have if we do not have each other? And I wanted my children to be able to see first hand that what they dream...they can create!  

  Though being a INFP (Introverted, iNtuitive, Feeling, Perceiving person) many events and people who crossed my life path caused me to doubt myself, and made me wonder if I was reaching too high.  Much of my childhood I felt drowned out by the noise and commotion of the world around me. Nature was my refuge. I found it quite hard to open up my true self to anyone.  Believing; through trial and error, that most people have their own agenda and cared more for their own idea of what you could be than they cared for what your dream was of who/what you wanted to become, for many long years I would walk alone inside with only moments of respite with other dreamers when our paths crossed here and there. It has taken a lot of hard work, true honesty with myself, long nights filled with tears and yearning, ongoing self exploration and evaluation, and much of my life thus far to reach where I am today. I'm beginning to feel comfortable in my own skin... like breathing freely for the first time. This is not to say that I don't still have fears. Mastering one's self is an ongoing process. Even writing this is difficult for me because I'm opening up in a new way, and to a very large audience. However I have learned to trust myself, and to believe in my dreams.  

  So here is the beginning of a new journey. It is starting right here as you read... each of you are a part of it. I am taking you with me as I navigate my dreams, and sharing the progress with you. I've started a collection of photos that I hope to have on my site soon. This blog here is something I'm going to do my best to write on once a month or more. It may be a post about weekly progress, a poem that came to my mind, the comedy of life with four young children, or something on my mind that's keeping me awake till 2am. Either way I hope it gives you a moment of peace, reflection, or happiness in your own busy week. There are also a few other surprises I hope to share in the near future.                                           

Enjoy your day,
~Amy Young/ Willow Rock Creations